Do you ever feel like you are trying so hard, working so hard, but you dont see any positive outcomes of it ?

Do you ever feel like whatever you do, whichever way be it, it is always a failure?

You are not alone.

Everybody has been through that phase. Maybe some individuals come out of that phase earlier than others, but be patient, you will too.

Hi, i am Opiyung and this is my diary. And i jot down my random thoughts on this page of mine. So if you happen to be a new visitor, thank you and welcome :).

Today is 22nd of May 2018. What a wonderful day it is! This morning just as i was going through my instagram feeds, i felt a slight breeze on my feet. I looked out of the window and yes it was raining. I love rain! I went out to my balcony and sat there, feeling the breeze and gazing at the beautiful scenic view. I am just so blessed to have a place at guwahati where i cannot even hear a single honking of the city traffic.

Anyways, coming back to what i was saying earlier, about keeping patience. I have come across people who hustle through everything and yet it is disappointment all along, I have come across people who would tell me how frustrated they are with their failure life, i have also come across people who are just lazy asses and complain about things not working out for them.

There are billions of people with zillions of stories. I am one of them with my own happy, sad, exciting, failure stories. Long time back i had decided its no point complaining. Clock ticks on, and we need to keep moving. Time is the only constraint that doesnot stop for anything or anyone.

I know everybody does, and so do i, somedays i feel down and cannot really figure out if i am sad, stressed or depressed. Somedays i think why am i doing with whatever i am doing. Is it worth it? Will it matter 20 years from now? When i keep on thinking (actually over thinking) about all this, i feel down again.

If you ask me which quote i live by, unhesitently i say it is “whatever happens, happens for a reason”. I can swear on this quote. It has helped me through a lot for the past few years. I swear. And i will always go by this quote.

Its not that you do nothing, stay at home sleeping and think this is happening for a reason, no! Keep trying, do what you want and have to do, give your best and then if you fail, think of this quote. Don’t lose hope. Keep trying.

You must be thinking yeah yeah it is easy to say, but hard to be pragmatic. I know. I know it must be hard and it will be hard. I am a very young girl who hasn’t much seen the world and haven’t experienced much. But i choose to be positive and create my own thoughts. What you feed to your mind, is what you become.

So be positive!

So this morning while i was at my balcony, sipping my fresh hot coffee, i looked at this tall coconut tree in the garden. It bore coconut seeds. The tree reminded me of a coconut tree we had back in my parents home. As a kid i had always been so excited to see trees bearing fruits. #becauseiusuallyseefruitsinthemarket #pluckingandeatingdirectfromthetreeissointeresting #dontyouthink? My older sisters told me if you pour salty water to the coconut tree it will bear fruit quicker. Well that was it. I would wake up early, get salt, mix it to a bucket of water, carry it to the garden and pour it on my dear coconut tree. Days turned into week, weeks turned into months, but i saw no fruit seed on my dear tree. Whatsoever. I did this for maybe 2-3 months. Alas! i gave up. And sadly few years later my parents had to chop down my dear coconut tree. #forhomextensionwork

(To kanya #sister2, you lied me about the salt water theory na? Buddhu banaya tha na. Vo watermelon vala theory bhi buddhu banaya na🙄 #mysistersalwaysmakesupstories #andibelieveit #everysingletime 🙄 youngest baby ko hamesha buddhu banaya jata hai🙄 #howiwishihadayoungerbro/sis) haha

Accha toh back to present. Now that i see this tree in my garden, which bears dozens of coconut seeds, it makes me happy. It really does. The tree didn’t needed extra special magical salt water to bear fruits quicker. It sustained through wind and storms, and grew from within. And when its time came, it bore fruits. This is magical. This is the result. And its beautiful.

Baat ye hai ki, nobody cared of the damn coconut tree until it bore fruits. Isn’t it? Likewise, nobody really cares until you actually achieve success in your life. Its a one man journey, your journey. None will come to your rescue. You will have to grow from within. Face failure and learn from it. Every step is a lesson. Why be scared and embarrased of failing? Everyone you know has gone and is going through it at some point in their life. So embrace your failures and move on! You have come this far, you are growing and you are doing absolutely fine.

Miles to go before you sleep!

#bepositive #staypositive #thingswillworkout #soonerorlater

With much love, ~O

P.S: I will try and post every now and then so do pay visits at opiyungsdiary.com and also you can find my updates on instagram account o_piyung

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